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Poems

by Allan Kolski Horwitz

Bringing Forth

Eve was there
Alone
She had no need for another
She was full breasted

And she lay in the garden
And seeded herself
And her milk made her happy
Eve after Eve after Eve

But when the moon was full and red
A warring rod and whirling light
Disturbed her womb
Till a hard-muscled child pushed out

And so Eve made Adam
Made herself and unmade herself
Made a man to stand
Beside and against her

It is never quiet in the garden
There is always vibration
And still Eve lies alone
Bringing forth Adam after Adam after Adam

Knock-knock

Thut-thut

Can you see him?
The trees are close
Thut-thut
Stop talking
Thut-thut
Time to stop talking
Look up
Listen
Thut-thut
To the woodpecker
Knocking

Knock-ing

Listen!
Listen
To the thut-thut
Trunk
Echo
Echo-ing
With that woodpecker’s
Knock-ing

Shh
Stop talking!
Listen
To the thut-thut
Thut
Knock
Knock
Knock-ing

No One is Safe

no one is safe

GANG BULLET CASH
that’s the one t-shirt
Freedom Dignity
another

in the street

young boys play soccer with a rolled up raincoat
wait for passing cars to get out the way

older majitas slouch by the spaza shop
three toothless women on the stairs
let them suck the baby’s milk
and there is music
relentless beat
there is always music coming from the shebeen
in the garage in Phuza Mansions
where an old man shuffles by with his empties

he’s afraid of the girls at the corner
you know those three in the basement of Cinnamon Court
he buys them airtime if they’ll visit
discretely

across the road from the hair salon
the abandoned building where the homeless
make use of the ceiling
lights up every night

the flicker of these fires
fires the imagination
NO ONE IS SAFE FROM THE GANG THAT COMES
OVER THE WALLS

the old man shuffles
sees rats tails on the kitchen tiles

inside the mayoral office the mayor
repeats reports about urban decay
the media broadcast his policy:
no surrender to the mafias
foreigners ARE responsible

the boys playing soccer do not see the official sedan

the man behind the wheel
steers it away from the scene

lucky the media were asleep in their hammocks
lucky there is no one to video the panties on the car seat
the mayor’s open bottle of heavenly spirits

the youngest boy’s in the gutter
neck broken on impact
the oldest boy is crying
the ball has popped and the game exploded

now clouds shade the street

and as the weather turns
the old man shares his wisdom
he is a guy who dreams

he confirms no one is safe from the gang that comes over the walls
no one is safe

but the biggest crooks are the white collar brigade
who sell you insurance

truly
there’s no point trying
to play safe
by living in a safe

What the hell

Day isn’t done yet
 so you breathe and fart and kiss
and slope down into a state of capture
when the architecture of isystem
cracks
and there are troubles troubled times
and day to day is fraught with danger

hell identity rules
and each defines a narrow turf
tribes bear their totems
ghettos proliferate
while the empires of monopoly and clique
suck in vaaast fortunes

but still day isn’t done yet
hate comes out to play
 the shackles of past crime still cling
 class and caste dominate
and then fast forward
as midnight approaches
 you are in the right place at the wrong time bro
or is it just the way
 the dialectic crumbles . . .

You can’t breathe
your hands are tied
you stand your ground
but the ground
collapses under you

the weight of the past is too
heavy for you to stand on

And always then when
 the dialectic grinds
 you reach for the warmth of her sex
for is not the motor of history
 power going forward

 and you both gasp in the slip stream
you both refuse to come up for air

 what the hell . . .

State of the Dominant Species

One point two billion living on the polluted banks of a caste-ridden Hindu ethno-nationalist river
Another one point three billion living under the glare of a totalitarian Communist Confucian robot
Over six hundred million in the Cradle of Humankind crushed under the belly of the Big Man and his sadistic cohorts
Over four hundred million stretched on a rack of sunglasses by pouting colonials and Bolivarian generalissimos
Another three hundred and forty million dangling at the end of kryptonite missile heads emblazoned with stars and stripes
And close by another two hundred odd million bored by Brussels and strangled with the toxic tape of snarling lily-white borders
Rivalled only by the one hundred million licking the KGB’s lips with their frozen sweat
And then there are the seventy-four hundred million women forced to robe the rape fantasies of bearded children
And the five hundred and twenty-nine million depressives devoted to gurus who ride pope mobiles over the cliff
And the thirteen million paedophiles porning their hormones while chanting the bitch names of their Heavenly Mother

And so we compose our swansong extinction

Pin Prick

Thirty second HIV test: positive or negative status indicated by the number of vertical stripes formed after a drop of blood has been introduced into a special solution contained in a small receptacle.

 

 

One line     or      two lines

never three lines

that’s the way it works

in this truth story

 

one   line          

   two  

   lines

blood drips onto the plastic boat

you take a voyage to far off places

dark heaving places where your heart clots

becomes swollen saggy yellowish sacs

 

     one line      

two

lines

blood hits the boil

breath blows up a high pressure zone

eyes squirm with salt

a dead lifetime floats into the future

sunrays shine bright

even     as they      waver

 

                                    one line          

            two  

   lines

only pulse beats away

the beginning or end of hot or cold kisses

seconds in which the mind and the memory

infect soft wet mucous

 

    one line       

     two

lines

the ship’s doctor readies a white coat

furies leer along the coastline

you will bless or damn this voyage

but you cannot choose where to drop anchor

the choice long made     long lived

or was it?

 

one line

two

lines

the crew’s down below

all those baring your sex

can you remember his or her face in the dark?

the slide into and out of that body

the heat

do you recall any cuts     any sores in the days after?

do you recall any scratches?

 

one line

two

lines

you crouch as waves wash the deck

seek a life boat

where’s your jacket?

the escape hatch is locked

 

O                  T L

N                                      I

E                     W                    N

L                                        E

I                   O                       S

N

E

 

three’s a crowd           in this pathology

that’s how it spreads

but

you can’t stop

Dandelions in the desert

 

A line from a poem by an inmate of ‘Sun City’ (Diepkloof Prison, Johannesburg)

 

Maximum security:       murderers     rapists     hijackers

minimum sentence:                   fifteen years

 

some seek to smuggle their hearts out

smuggle out the bruises

branded in orange suits      sterilized monks

divided according to their studies

ability to manage the daily blur of lockup

without shrieks   conspiracies to escape

without records of internal mayhem

boxed in with a            double-bunk     table     toilet    radio     tv

a few  books to blot out the shiny concrete walls

boxed by scissor-sharp grill bars  across a window

three men together so if one is killed

there’ll be a witness

they watch the clock hands with or without hope

with or without fear

for whatever happened      happened

whatever took place at some place    at some time

took place at some time

and now each day they must wake to boiled food

coarse and joking warders

smells of  a cage      the smells of other cages

stiff cocks   or dead/soft

they must wake in the nights        clutch their blankets

clutch themselves

clutch at the saviour sugared by chaplains

and these clean shaven men bring us their poetry

their cries and rants     their whispers

yes      some dare to look within the deeds

that cost life     cost them their lives

these men bring out their poems

these clean thin smiling men

recite and chant    then listen intently    applaud ours

they come to dispel dead weight

starched sterile strips of living

these poems made of the guts of those who

took dignity     took limbs     took trust

took away from unknown  strangers

took away from those they loved

those who loved them

yes    some have visions of those

they murdered     raped      savaged     soiled

and we sit in the rec room

try to paint faces on the smooth walls

the blank benches

word-seed fertilizing minutes    hours   months   the years

ground out in this prison

we dissect     give voice to the karma of crime

embrace the bearers of guns of knives

who carry no horns     no jagged finger nails

no scars running from ear to neck

no gaping mouths      no hunched backs

no foul breath swamping our noses

and they sit in rows and laugh

shout “bua!” when the mood rises

and the poetry  lifts

and the poet entranced     entrances

some few dare dream beyond this time

      make instead of break

 

and we wonder at the world tribunal

the judges and the victims

who chorus  a relentless refrain

its necessary sentence of retribution and waste

we wonder at  this bringing evil and good

to the same table

this yoking of pain to the present

this wheel strapping us to nothing and madness

driving the hope of forgiveness    of erasure

of release

we sit in the stale starched recreation room

and for an hour recreate this world

make it a place to live well

and when we leave i am able to ask these marauders

these violators:

“you who kill time for the crimes you committed

can you become the dandelions you wish to be

in this desert?

can you now know yourselves and love others?

can you prove yourselves wrong?

can you prove yourselves right?

The Bread of the Dutch is Death

Found poem

 

 

We will never eat the bread of the Dutch again

We will eat our bread buttered with blood

We will never eat the bread of the Dutch again

 

I, Tromp van Madagascar, Age 20

I, Cupido van Batavia, Age 30

I, Jeroen van de Malijste Cust, Age 24

I, Neptunis van Bima, Age 20

we, bondsmen of the former burgher councilor Nicholas Oortmans

 

I, Titus van de Caab, Age 22

I, Joumat van Ternaten, Age 40

I, Pasqual van Spaanse Wes Indies, Age 30

We, bondsmen of dispencier, Sieur Johannes Swellengrebel

 

I, Thomas van Bengalen, Age 30

I, Anthonij van Mallebaar, Age 40

we, slaves of  the farmer Christoffel Esterhuijs

 

Have willingly, without torture or threat of bonds, of irons,

Or even the least threat of these,

Confessed and admitted

That the first prisoner, Tromp,

With Hanibal, alias knap een Deuntjie,

Who has been shot dead,

Did not scruple nor hesitate

To incite many slaves to flee

 

That we conferred with one another

And agreed never to return again to our masters

And to head for the land of the Portuguese

Never again will we eat the bread of the Dutch

Never again will we bow our heads

Never again will we smile for mercy

 

We, bondsmen, slaves held at the Cape, at the tip of Africa

We seized guns and flour and made our escape

Cemetary of driftwood

Cove, south of the Storms River

 

Sucked out to sea by the rivers

then beached by the tides

these salted beams of white bone

creviced               c  o  n

t   o    r

te d

wracked trunks and branches

fibrous mottled arms

crusted   calcified beyond rot

left sprawled in an alcove

*

as you crest the hill you will see them

jammed together      pale with seagull shit

the sculpted stumps

grave with elongated agony

Cyber Loyalty

him:  This life is a hard road. I want the best 4 u. may love give us courage

  her 1:  I tink its better if we both move on wit our lives pls

her 2:  Hie truly it is, yes definitely our love and GOD wil give us courage. Thnx, sleep wel

    her 3:    If only love could pay the bills then ill be happy. Gudnite. Im out of airtime

her 4: I knwlifestufbts I swear nothngwil make me to fail to make u happy n be ur future wife.

I love u ne

 

What is to be done?

A Question for Vlladimir Illyich Lenin

 

The beggar taps at the car window

shows his stump

 

the driver looks into his blood-shot eyes

looks at his rags

tells him about boom and bust

cycles of supply and demand

the movement for deregulation of lust

 

the beggar says ‘bread, any bread, boss”

 

the driver rolls down the window

tells the beggar about rampant short-changing

price-fixing and insider trading

how monopolies are gobbling

how today’s rising stock  is tomorrow’s collapse

 

the beggar sniffs, scratches his matted hair    

 

the driver tells him about pyramids and plots in the sea

over-invoicing     round-tripping

tax havens      tax schemes      tax  holidays

cartels and cabals

 

the beggar thrusts his one hand forward

     “anything to hold me together, chief”

 

the driver tells the beggar no amount of glue

can fix the world

no amount of patching can cover the cracks

 

the beggar at the window waits for the driver

to feed him more than fear       more than rage

more than fantastical accounts of disaster

 

the driver shakes his head     turns away

rolls up the window

 

the beggar spits

 

the driver watches the spit roll down the window

into the street

 

the beggar stands in his puddle of spit

 

the light turns green

the driver drives on his way

and day revolves and Cain kills Abel

and then Abel kills Cain in the next life 

Eva Haroun Blogs From Tahrir Square

 

The dictator warns the people: I am stubborn
The people respond: each of us has 3 PhDs in stubbornness

The dictator warns: I will crush you like a dung beetle rolls shit
The people respond: we are the grass that gives life to the cow

The dictator warns: I will descend like a hawk from the sky, tear you limb by limb
The people respond: we are all field mice armed with the power of flight

The dictator warns: I will blot you out like an eclipse of the sun
The people respond: we will shine like the moon with her full belly

The dictator warns: I will unleash your sons, my soldiers, to beat you
The people respond: we will offer them the bread and meat you scoff at your banquets

The dictator warns: I will call in my paymasters from across the ocean
The people respond: we will show them the tombs of our ancestors

The dictator warns: I will divert the waters of the sacred river
The people respond: we with our sweat will flood the parched plains

The dictator warns the people: I will seduce you with my myth and my tanks
The people respond: we will become heroes in our own story

*

The people gather in the square.
The people in their hundreds of thousands.
And the people dance. Raise placards.
The people offer flowers to the soldiers.
Offer flowers to each other.
The people wait.

The dictator summons his generals.
Schemes with his cronies till dawn.
The dictator calls for clandestine action.
The people sing songs and rally each other.
Though his cudgels break their bones.
Though the walls of their houses collapse.
Though flour runs out in the bakeries.

The people sit. They sit in the square
The dictator offers a new cabinet.
An election. Offers an end to emergency rule.
But how many times has he lied?
How many times before promised change?

The people sit and the dictator puffs up his chest:
Once I am gone another strong man will replace me.
Another strong man.
You will see.
You are a rabble that needs to be led.

The people hold high their placards in the square.
There is no choice but to believe.
The people must believe
They do not need another bully.
Another cabal.

The people sit. Day after day, they sit.
And this sitting shakes the dictator’s henchmen.
Frightens foreign powers who back him.
All these sound the alarm.
Threaten chaos if he leaves.
But the people chant in the square.
Chant by the roadside.
Resist the thugs and the warnings
Till the dictator does a deal
And the armed forces replace him.

The people celebrate with song and dance.
Celebrate with poems and speeches.
Then the people disperse and return to their old lives.
Their jobs and their families.
Their weddings and funerals.

Who will now keep the flame burning?
Who will set fear aside?
Draft a just constitution. Hold fair elections.
Revise the policies that make life so hard.
Who will ensure that the generals keep their word?

The flame must be fed by the guardians.
Those who will not retreat.
Those in whom the flame burns brightest.
The flame must burn strong
Along the valley of the great river,
In the marshes and desert.
The people must hoist up the standard.
Push away the old tiredness.
The yoke of yore.

The people shoulder the question mark that hangs over them.
They take up the chant.
The people rally round the guardians.
The people become stronger than the strong man.

The people become their own heroes.
This has been Eva Haroun from Tahrir Square.
May I be a mother of this revolution!
The mother of a new time!
I, the first woman singing to you
Of the uprising.

Food for life

Serengeti

Herds rivening the plain      dust clouds blanket their rear

thousand year trail of wildebeest       zebra       gazelles

and in the rivers they must cross to reach the fresh grass

and along their banks

those creatures    that live off their flesh

the crocodile      the lion      the leopard

even hippos roused from muddy pens

by the thrashing of frenzied flanks

all these creatures shaken by the thundering hoof-beat

waves of grass-eaters crashing into the current

dust-caked herds     sweat-stained

running towards jaws tickling the long grass

and so the wind blowing downstream unsheathes reddening claws

submerged snouts bubble the water       serrated rows ready to rip

furious with instinct

devoted celebrants of this over-riding boisterous blind movement

this pulse of strength      speed        cunning

this agony of the dying unable to staunch

the undying jubilation of survivors

for days the dust rises

herds roll     stampede

blood pumps and spills and gushes

everything victorious


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